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Friday, November 12, 2010

A period of rest

Yes, I'm in my 2nd month of maternity leave. Am I enjoying every minute of it? Yes...spending time with the baby I everyday.

Tengku Mahkota and I thank god for this life that He has entrusted us. Before I delivered Baby I, I was so looking forward to the 2 mths of maternity leave to have plenty of rest, spending time at home, doing my own things and also spending time with my mom (cos i hardly spend time with her except short visit back to Turtle island).

One month has passed and now I have another 2 weeks to go. I thank god for having such a supportive mom who has been with me throughout the confinement. Till today, she's still on night shift with me to take care of baby I, passing the baby to me for midnight feed and supporting breastfeeding. She encourages me to think positively that more milk will come. Even though i've left home after secondary school and never had good opportunities to spend time with my mom, the maternity leave has allowed me to do so. This is what we called God's timing. i having sufficient rest? my life has changed tremendously since his arrival. I used to sleep at least 7 hours per night. Now, merely 3 hours of rest will satisfy me these days and I don't really like to take naps during day time.

yea..i reckon i shall rest well before I return to work in early December and prayerfully I can also spend some quality time with Tengku Mahkota.

Friday, June 18, 2010


I admit I'm a worrier, a person who worries a lot (genes from my late father). I can tell how much I've used my brain by judging from the white hair that grow on my head. Just two weeks ago, I was given a task from the high management to carry out an ad hoc study. It took me 1.5 weeks to complete after looking for the right person to provide me the data, think about how to analyze, provide insights and recommendations. Guess what? my white hair suddenly appeared and my colleague can't believe it when she pulled out more than 15 white hair.

I'm a person who thinks a lot, cannot stop thinking when I have a problem to address. I get into a world of my own and I just can't stop finding a way out. When i get into such situation, only TM will sense it. Even though I manage to get into sleep, I believe my brain still working at the back of it because I dream of the problem. Advice from many people would be relax...Sigh...It's not that I don't have faith in God, but I'm still finding a solution to make myself get distracted on other subjects.

However, the joy that I experience when I get a problem solved is indescribable. The minute when I see the light at the end of the tunnel ( believe me, it's not the light of the choo choo train, but a solution!)

I'm not sure I'm a restless person, but my loved ones claimed that I'm one. I can't sit down and do nothing. I need to do something, read a book or magazine, listen to music, etc. I just need to get my mind occupied and ensure that it runs every minute. Restless me...and my closest passive friend that I have in this world is BOOKS. I love reading :D

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Home sweet Home

Home = Shelter.
Home = Place to rest.
Home = Comfort.
Home = Tranquility.

After being a nomad for almost 9 years, I've settled down in a home. A home that I can find comfort and I look forward to after work everyday. A place that I just want to stay during weekends.

I really enjoy sitting down in the living room playing the music that I love to listen, the quietness...

If I need to migrate to another country one day, I wish I could move the entire house just like the movie 'UP'... hmmm, just a thought :D

InfanT + MOn-chi-chi

Cute? Thanks CK!

Change is a constant

Change is a constant in many organizations especially in this difficult times. Flexibility is required when re-structure of the organization takes place. However, it's easier to be said than doing it when we are told to.

For instant, change of job portfolio is one of the most common thing. You may not work on something that you were briefed during the interview. You may choose to do it or leave it (quit!). But, why not giving yourself a chance to explore something that you've never done it before and there's a possibility that you could find your talent or interest there!

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

I'm thankful for every opportunity that has to me and I thank god for His strength that has given me to take up the challenge.

Friday, April 02, 2010


In more than a month time, I'm going to celebrate my birthday. I started to ask myself:
  1. What have I done in the past xx years? I think I spent a lot of time focusing on my studies. No courtship till I finished my degree. But no regrets, I think I'm happy with what I have.
  2. What are the significant milestone I've achieved? Never thought that I got married and settled down before 30 years old. It's a blessing to have a boy friend and God showed us the way to walk further together.
  3. Did I miss out anything that I need to do at that age? Like CJ said, Fernnie's wardrobe does not have a tube (by the way, until today). I can live without one.
  4. Have I traveled enough? Thank god for the free trips and I'm glad that I've traveled a bit. Somehow, I wouldn't mind if I get more free trips (not alone though, after having a bad experience when a drunkard was opposite the road and I was all alone in a cold winter night)
Next post, I shall start brainstorming on how to move on in the years to come and find out what's the plans that God has for me...

Some random thoughts

If I were given some money, what will I do?
  1. Pursue an MBA degree. I've started to do some research on GMAT and all. Yes, I have the desire to go back to study to pursue an advanced degree that could make an impact on my career (going into strategic planning with quantitative and qualitative research skills). Despite I've done 3 business modules during my M.Eng days, I still find that it's insufficient to get myself to where I want to be.
  2. 4 season country. The weather is unbearable, my face is getting red and I can't stop people from questioning me everyday 'Why your face is red?' My reply 'According to my Biology teacher, she said that my cells are too thin. Hence, it's red!' I haven't got a chance visit Australia and US. So far, UK has given me good impression, i love the food and weather (even though it's a bit gloomy everyday, my mood is not affected by the weather from summer to winter).
  3. Migrate to a 4 season country. Transferring my entire family to a 4 season country. Whether you have a chance to work there at the age of 30 or 45 years old, things are gonna be tough initially e.g. to settle down and getting a place that fits all family.
Hmmm...From this list, it seems that I have a desire to get myself out from this country. Have I got myself into a test? First of all, I asked myself a question and all my random thoughts led to a desire that is planted in me.

Saturday, January 23, 2010


I reckon I haven't been blogging much since I joined my current company 8 months ago. Indeed, every job that i get myself into was such a blessing from God. I have to admit that without His direction, I may not be where I am right now.

Since i graduated, I got myself in R&D and this job really gave me abundant opportunities to travel and learn. With two bosses, one in Malaysia and one in UK, put a lot of effort to train my thought process, seeing things from different angle.I can't deny whatever they have taught me has allowed me to grow.

With God's blessing, my prayer was answered and giving the chance to get into academic industry for 6 months. Even though, it didn't turn out as what I expected. God has guided me and molded me. Again, I asked myself 'Am i gonna be a teacher throughout my life?' I love the country that i was sent to and the life, the food and culture. Nevertheless, loved ones were not with me to share the joy that I experienced.

The third job that I got into provided me a good transition of career. More importantly, it was god's timing that I got the job and I was given opportunities to explore and decide where's the next destination that I want to head to...yes, i found the answer...

'How far are you from the dream that you want to have?' my current boss questioned me in my appraisal session. 'I reckon I'm on the right track where I want to head to' I answered. No matter how much you plan, personal will is not the best unless it's aligned with God's plan.

It's almost 9 months into the current job, I've learned new things despite the challenging environment that I need to go thru. Transferring my knowledge to my teammate have made me realized that I actually learned new things and passed it on...

At this moment, I do have a lil wish and I'm still committing to the Lord Almighty who knows what's best. Just like our pastor reminds us 'If you honour God, He will bless you'.

Saturday, January 02, 2010

Have a blessed new year~

Time flies and I haven't been blogging for the past 4 months. I reckon my blog's gonna die soon, but I guess it's never too late to post a line or two :D

It has a been a challenging year for me in 2009, from one job to another. But, Tengku Mahkota and I have achieved a great milestone. We've got a new place and now we can just sit down and enjoy our home. I missed home so much even though we were away for 24 hours up north to attend a wedding.

With a thankful heart, great things have happened in 2009 and challenging times that we've encountered have molded my character. God had given me opportunities to see all kinds of people and reaching out to new friends.

I shall start thinking of my 2010 resolution. What do I really wanna do and achieve? The only thing that come across my mind is I shall continue to honour God and learn to rest in Him. Don't work on Sabbath day.

Have a great and blessed new year!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Loooong weekend

Thanks to the Hari Raya and all of us can enjoy a long weekend to unwind ourselves. I've been so busy with my new job and I haven't got time to update my blog for quite some times. Even though at times I do have some random thoughts that I wanted to share, I don't have the time to jot it down. Sigh...

Yea, I'm still settling down in my new job after 4 months..Wow...4 months, things have changed and I don't do the same everyday at work. I meet all the ad hoc request deadlines and get answers for people who are going for presentations... Indeed, this is a challenging job. No pain, no gain. Some times, I started to wonder is this God's plan. But, there's a reason why all these happen cos He allows it. I hope that I can learn as much as possible in this new place and I'm trying my very best to perform. Heavy workload, heavy responsibility, that's life. I can't be staying at junior level forever, I need to move on and do better...